Have you ever feel so down? There’s no spirit in your life,
you feel like you’re alone, you’re nothing, you can’t step your life
anymore. I feel it now, I’m so tired of being like this. Same like this song, I
really love this song, this is my favorite song since 3 years ago. This song
always make me cries when I listen to it, in uncontrolled emotion.
I just wondering my life in future, it is so make me
impressed, it’s beautiful life. But, in the fact, everything gonna wrong. The
process to make it true is hard, I never imagine it before. I don’t have anyone
to talk, to tell all of my problems, I just have Allah. I just think, I can’t
believe anyone even that my parents. They may be know my problems, but they may
be not understand. But, Allah know,
Allah know everything in this world, what truly happened with me. That’s
why, I always erase my stress feeling with listen this song and crying in the
middle night, after I cried, my feel going to be okay.
Dreams, ambition, passion, vision, and whatever it called.
Its makes me feeling alive, everytime I fell down, I get up. I know, there’s no
one thing in this world happened without Allah permission, and I believe too,
what I’m feeling now, it’s a learning for me. But I don’t know, how long that I
can hold and pretend like there’s nothing happened in my life. I just a girl,
who have big ambition and thousands dreams.
The world like not fair for me, until now. I have to
suffering on my honestly, but the cheaters are happy out there! I just try to
start the real life with honest, although its hard when I have to realize, I just
the only one who keep the honestly between the many cheat around me. Only Allah
know it, I don’t have to tell to anyone, because they don’t know, they don’t
understand.
If I talk about problems, there are so many problems I have
in this time, and it’s not easy to leave. One more time, I can’t tell to
anyone, because no one understand, no one knows how it feel.
I just asking how the success peoples around me enjoy their
life? I know, there’s no success without suffer. They inspire me, make me more
stronger than before. I want to be like them, I want to success, I want to be
an extra ordinary girl. I want to do everything, to complete my skills.
I’am trying to be wise, I don’t want to show my problems. But,
how long can I keep this problems? I just a man, who have many imperfection. If
you say that I was worng, tell it! And if you say that I am right, tell it too!
Now imagine the
peoples inspire you, imagine your problems, imagine how suffer you are, feel
the pain, let it blow up in your eyes, let your tears fell down, and let
yourself to cry. Take it out from yourself by the tears, let it go with all of
your emotions now. Feel the angry, scream in your heart and throw all of your
sadness in every tear you cry.
I always use this for make my feeling better, and after this,
I went to sleep with peace and relax in my mind.
Well, maybe this is not a great write, because i'm confusing now. I can't write clearly, I don't know what i have to write. But, actually i want to write a motivation article by my story. Then, i can't think clearly about that. Maybe in the next write, i will have better topic than today.
